Things are not good.
I have had some significant adjustments, changes around the neck-shoulder-jaw, which have corresponded to the opposite hip. Weird shit. Some shifts have been big, a lot of meat changing where it sits.
As a result, something is amiss near my right ear. The right side of my face is swollen, as well as a gland just under the ear. Pain, pain, and pain. I can't go horizontal without sharp sustained throbbing. So, I can't sleep.
Hence, the iPad and this entry.
I've taken a lot of pain meds, and ibuprofen for swelling, to seemingly no avail. Icing my head does little.
I do not think it is an ear infection, though it hurts like one, at least not a classic one. I think it was an aggravation by trauma to joints tangled near the jaw and ear from my original injury.
I am sure dying ain't exactly fun no matter how it comes, but I don't want to go like this.
Anyways, here I sit, tormented, face numb from Narco but the ear/head still throbbing, unable to rest, unable to sleep.
I am honing in on some old feelings, but I cannot describe them well, like segmented cords shifting within me.
Enough, I suppose.