It’s been a terrible year for me.
There has been progress. In the pool, I have managed to find more of my torso, and almost connect my arms to it. And my butterfly has had some incredible improvements.
But I have been dreadfully alone. Not entirely true. Some outstanding, truly outstanding people have been trying to pick me up in the online gaming community. I just feel I am a drag on them, which during this Covid crap is tough to handle.
Would it really be so bad if I just died and stopped being a bother to so many. I do not see my value. I do not see my worth, not anymore. I spend so much time sad, waiting for friend, the. Turn into eyeore and bring everyone down constantly. What use is that?
I do keep having progress, but I just can’t free my shoulder blades. There is so much pressure on my chest and neck. I don’t know how much longer I can do this.
