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Winter arrived. The Mayan calendar ended. I remain, changing.
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There was some real progress the last two days, however, and for a moment, last night, subluxing limbs while inhaling steam in the spa (in a nice rain, too), I do believe I saw the light at the end of the tunnel.
The specifics are for my journal, not here. They just wouldn't make sense without pages of prose I lack the ability to write at the moment.
For example, I found a release in my jaw that may well lead to being able to sleep on my back. Make sense? A quick attempt, a starter, really - the jaw release freed a connection which had my skull tilted back in relation to the top of my spine. My back of my head was able to lift, my neck elongating, the spine seeming to move slightly back and straightening (instead of arcing like a "c," it became an "l").
The other BIG change was a feeling in my right shoulder that I cannot explain at all. For a brief moment, it was like a ball was atop my arm within the shoulder joint. I had a "Holy Shit! Is THAT what it's supposed to feel like?" moment, and spent the next 20 minutes or so trying to recapture the feeling, to no avail.
Anyways, I am exhausted. My body is sore. My lungs are shot. My sinuses are dried and bleeding. I've had no better than 4 hours of sleep any night the past week and a half. There really is nothing quite like the experience of a physical metamorphosis while ill in Winter.
Now the relatives are coming to dote on my daughter.
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I'll close with a nice little apocalyptic concept.
In the past, when I'd have an adjustment that would alter my chest or neck such that my posture opened up previously closed portions of lung or sinus, I'd get sick, similar to now.
Suppose, some 30+ year old virus I had as a kid was trapped in some corner of lung or sinus cavity. There, it mutated, only to be freed when an insane genius (or the genuinely insane, your choice) managed to figure out how to unwind his body. I could be ground zero for the super flu, Captain Tripps, himself.
Tangential, at best, though circling back, a picture of endurance? Apres Moi, Le Deluge. It's a decent look at moments of my time.